sunday, 7th march 2010

first clear, sunny day in three months. walked to williamson’s park. toddlers taking tentative jumps after their mothers down the memorial steps. couples laughing and holding hands and strolling along leaf-littered paths. small kids on bikes going round and round. warm in the sun, yet there is a memory of frost in the air, and the lake is frozen over. playing hide-and-seek with dad, playing tig with mum. friends sitting and smoking and talking.

i sit by myself and watch dog walkers laughing at each other and people in hammocks drinking coffee out of thermos flasks. i sit and pull at the dry grass and close my eyes. i am relaxed. i have never felt more content, more happy than this moment.

climb a tree, sit and watch the birds fluttering and flitting through the branches with such ease. as they, along with last year’s dead leaves cast shadows on my upturned face, i have never felt so happy and content than now, sitting in a huge tree, it’s branches embracing me like comforting arms.

first day of spring?

exited for the summer ahead, where i can walk and sit and talk and have picnics with people i haven’t seen for a while. i will make a picnic lunch every time- crusty baguettes, cool water in huge bottles, and plenty of fresh, home baked cake. i will never have felt so content in my life, in the sun, thinking of the possibilities of the two years of sixth form and then gap year? ahead, surrounded by the people i cherish and love the most. (esp. eden, bekah, sandy and sophia. that would be the best thing ever)

i will have tea parties and invite people wearing pretty dresses round to my house to chat and drink earl grey in the sun, of course with an abundance of homemade cake. and i will never have felt as happy or content as i do in that moment in my life.

i can’t wait for summer.

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this is where i am now. sorry i have neglected this blog no one xxx
i may decide to come back soon. i may not.

alfie

This is my cat alfie:
(it will be bernard's turn soon!)



(happy 50th birthday morrissey for yesterday ;] )

Svo Hljótt

i feel i have neglected Sigur Rós over the past month and i feel baad. :(
After listening to Með suð í eyrum við spilum endalaust in full last night, i realise just whhy i fell in love with them in the first place. such a stunning album :']
only 20-odd more plays and they will overtake the wombats on my last.fm :)
(which is a good thing)

"we had to write about our favourite book, and i wrote about the dictionary..."

"I use flowers because Oscar Wilde used flowers. I really admire the idea of constantly being attached to some form of plant."

unnecessarily flippant

he says "delicate" too much :D

and a crack on the head is what you get for asking

I am going to write about food.

I love food, which is probably a good thing, i mean if i hated it, i would be dead.
off hand i would say my favourite food in the whole wide world is these beautiful things:

Stufed vine leaves,
mmm...leaves...

veggie of course, quorn mince or lentils.
(and excuse the cliché, i'm enlgish after all, whadda you expect ;] )

with the mushy peas of course!
and pehaps a pickled egg
*waits for cries of disgust*
pudding:


right. i really need to get this off my chest.
i haven't written any of this down and i need to now.
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I don't eat meat. i was brought up this way. i haven't eaten meat in my whole life
(apart from a tiny piece of bacon which i thought was gross)
I do eat fish. again, the way i was brought up.
i get loads of crap:
"why do you eat fish but not meat?" etc etc
well, my answer is
"BECAUSE I WANT TO"
i can eat what i want (as long as i'm not eating people... )
i don't question their diets!
i have considered becoming a "proper" veggie, i may do when i move out.
but i don't want to turn down food that my mum has cooked, it's rude.
until then i will be a "pescatarian" which is as stupid name!

i don't like vegetarians who refuse to carry a plate that has/has had meat on it,
or will not eat near/next to someone eating meat.
i think that this is pathetic, and we should except everyone's individual diets.
i also dislike people who say "what do vegetarians eat?" etc
for gods sake, have they never had a meal in their lives that has not had meat in it?
have they never heard of meat alternatives? pfft.
[edit:] or lentils?!?! haha

i have also considered becoming vegan, i would be able to cope, but i don't think i will just yet.
when i eat fish/cheese/milk/eggs/anything else produced from animals it is always free range, and organic.
i feel that it would be VERY hypocritical and plain fucking stupid to not eat meat because of..say..battery farms, when eggs can be, and are produced in that (fucking disgusting) way too.

No matter what i do though, there is always going to be someone there telling me i'm wrong:
- eating fish when i don't eat meat
or
- eating dairy products- "turn vegan!"
or
- wearing leather/ sitting on leather

etc etc

and i'm just going to have to deal with that.
i call myself vegetarian, because i am more comfortable saying that than saying "i don't eat meat"
i don't know why, but i can do that if i want to!!

although, i don't know what i'm going to do when i go to iceland they eat:
- shark (half rotted)
- sheep head
- puffin
- sheeps testicles
- whale (GR!)

haha joking- if Jónsi can manage being vegan and living in iceland, i'm sure i can manage! (:
[i can always EAT FISH]

haha:

shame i'm not allowed to stay up and watch the new series tonight D:< p.s.